a dream last night:

i am in my old boston bedroom, alone and content. i find cat toys, noisy ones, ones with bells and rattles�little balls i toss across the room and against the wall. freyjachunk jumps and writhes. she pants in ecstatic kitty delight.

i have a pc there with me, and i crawl the internet for puppet porn. the most interesting site i find has a video of a man puppeting out his penis. he has a large, dark blue but clear like cellophane, glove � the fingers each being penis size. he inserts his penis into the pointer finger and wiggles, then inserts it into the next, etc. during the course of the film he makes little noises and mumbles, the penis�s voice (the penis only muffle-mumbles with plastic stretched over its head, you know). it reminds me of robbers in stocking-masks, all smushed and out of proportion like.

i leave my room and walk around the apartment. it is on the first floor and has seemingly endless numbers of rooms. i have just moved here with violent and fucktoyz a few months ago. i am breaking my lease and leaving because i can no longer afford to stay. i find people wandering around in our apartment exploring and poking around at everything�the landlord has already sent people looking to rent my space.

strange.