i was talking to someone about relationships the other day who asked, where's the ring? - and i thought it odd that i had not thought about such things lately. i think i responded something similar to, everything in its own time...which filled me with a feeling of satisfaction or completeness.

interesting.

we are busy moving our lives, readjusting our finances, planning for a future of being together. tt and i are at the point where it is almost as if we were married years ago anyhoo, what is the difference.
(i must say i hope these feelings of solidarity and completeness stay and i do not result back to the weak vow seeker i have been in the past.)

they are marrying gay couples legally in Frisco now, many of which have been married in spirit and soul if not legally for 10, 20, 30...years. they do it to be official, yes i am certain some of them do, to be legally wed - it was fun to hear a grrl at work today explain that she and her partner are going to go because they would like to be part of the movement and support the cause (even if they realize the marriages may only be legal for a few days.) i respect her reasoning...it is good to participate in an eye-opening act in-front of an un-just government.

i want to go down to city hall and pass out cake and birdseed to everyone, i want to give them a hug, i want to join in...i am a sap. i think i would just get in the way - but i am so very happy for them, i am.

sometimes i feel lame/sellout for being in a seemingly conventional relationship - grrl vs. boi - for wearing pants that just don't quite fit the way i want them to, for disappearing into the crowd, for loosing my racy individuality. i do have my standards, and am unbiased as to which sex should fit the mold - tt is one that fits, whether he be a boi or not.

it is strange...

i feel gay, i like the bubbies and grrly ways, i like kissing lipstick lips, inserting fingers, licking - my my the licking! - but i like all sorts of boi things as well. i have heard it said that there are no true bi people...that they are just indecisive, switchy, immature. peh. i prefer not to discriminate based on race, color, age, sex, etc. - i am not an animal!

*shrug*

enough about me...why don't we talk about you?