is it possible to purge myself of thoughts? of transitory feelings and angry angry. the past few weeks have been so incredibly extreme � extremely upset, extremely in love, extremely pissed, extremely happy, extremely hopeless and distraught.

what the fuck.

i will have to change this transitory period into something more stomachable. heh. no one wants to hang around with someone with sad, right (let alone support and love them)?

i am flailing about in the swamps,
flaying skin thoughts pretty
�my bed more and more attractive.

interesting, but also disturbing.
sometimes i feel as if i am watching my life, observing my emotional and physical reactions to things. sometimes i feel like an actress, yes, in the worst b film ever.

i am uncomfortable with being stagnant�i need constant turbulence? fountain ripples?

pleh.

the party was magnanimously successful, methinks�although there was some disbelief about the wine and cheese dressing up part. heh. no, we are actually serious about the croquet on the lawn and the ties/heels.

*smile*

lunch!