i am in the midst of a dilemma, and i do not know what to do about it.

the utilities for TT and i's apartment have gone up the past few months...up to a point where i am having difficulty affording paying for the bills and food. the water is now twice as expensive, the electricity has gone up...etc.

my paychecks cover it, but my budget is really restricted...to a point where TT ends up supporting our social outings completely. this is unfair to him...very. i have considered things like "secret shopping" around town for extra cash, a part time job, hell -- strip clubs seem like a lot of fun...but with working full time already, on top of graduate courses, i just have no time.

he is being punished for his generosity? i have no right to offer out things that are not mine...things that i do not really pay for. he can say no, but he is too sweet.

*sigh*

thepalewanandsickly may come live with us next year, if things with ninboy do not work out. i already discussed with her paying for rent and pitching in for utilities and such, so things should be ok...

*crosses fingers*

last night was a night of forgetting...everything...and just relaxing, watching final destination with idlechic. fun! sometimes i really miss human contact. i am pretty much healed, so i think i can start going out to the club again and such...

tonight, voltaire and halloween fun. $15 is really expensive, but i just got paid today and deserve a halloween treat, right?

right?

*frowns*