*twitch*twitch*

today i am all nerves and anxiety -- but in a fun way. today, today perhaps we, being the plural form, find out if there is to be a conjuncture soon. what we (pl) have waited for, at last will come to fruition? we (pl) will have a date set, and plans to make?

oh my god, this is going to be so good!

anxiety dreams last night, of course. i was a member of a 5 person orgy set -- over time which fell apart (surprise) and i was left out of most "acts" and positionings. for some reason, when i went for a walk for to think this out, i ended up in an Arthur Creatures, running my fingers over they dirty tables and flirting capriciously with the fry boy. odd. i was sad. i was angry. i went back to the apartment where the five of us were staying at some resort place which has appeared in my dreams before, nothing but strip malls and amusement parks, fast food. i eventually ended up sobbing and left the apartment. one of the boys (the two others stayed inside and fucked the other grrlie) came outside with me, and i complained for the first time about the imbalance of it all, and i was truly crushed.

i awoke with no resolution.

i believe this dream stems from nervousness about that which is most important/precious. he will land the job today? will they take a few days to decide? so curious am i. oh my!

*twitch*tremble*