things are better today�my solution for anxiety being reading a 900+ page book and kitty tongues � the book being read over time, not in one fell swoop, if you get my meaning�*smile*

forgot to bring a lunch today, so not only am i less of monies, but also worse off for food stuffs. tonight, i hope for calzones and movies�but we�ll see. i have a pile o�change at home with my name on it! much much change � literally, not emotionally or figuratively (but i would go for that too!!)

last night i received the bigbird contract in the mail, Ps and Qs in place, vacation proper as well as salary. this is going to be interesting, this official librarian working stuff.

i am happy today, and proud that i can do this�after all, they have no idea that i was once (am probably still) quite insane,� a nagging worry of mine, the thought that people can just tell when they meet me. (meat me)

fun!

we shall play it like a game, precious, piece by piece *wrings her hands* soon, precious, soon.

i am a little weird-ed out at the prospect of working in a cube atmosphere�but then again, i would think there are few people who are not. i will print out pictures of the near and dear, plastering them to the very walls. add some bats and strange rantings and i should feel quite at home.

*shrug*

do not worry, no selling out here.

*wink*

i am going to take that place for a quite the furious (and fast) ride!
when i am gone, their breath will catch, and they shall look out on the organization and precise knowledge management i leave behind�and they will cry big sloppy and wet tears, forgetting to catch their nose for their misery�just gross with woe.

oh yes, and we�ll sweep ourselves away leaving only the faintest scent of vanilla and jasmine in our place, my precious.