in my dream last night:

i am inside a large cathedral, one of the flying buttress, with gargoyles and shaped like a huge cross ones. our familial group is gathered in the right cross wing of the church and sither and hoffliebe are getting married. it is darkish and candle-lit pretty, the air filled with incense and burning wax � a beautiful atmosphere. i am so very happy for them.

my mother walks up to me and asks if i still have my thrift-store wedding dress. yes, i reply. then go get it, you are getting married too.

and i look around an see no one else there with me�and i find it odd that it is her decision and statement.

later there is another dream�

i am in a convenience store in a small town in ohio�the store seems a bit more like an independent grocery with uneven ramped floors and dust. it is empty in the afternoon and quite charming. i put fresh vegetables in the cart and canned food.

as i walk and browse, i look out a large and dirty pane glass window and see two people outside the front of the store. it is a cute goth couple, but very swanky stylish, in their late twenties � embracing and kissing in front of a parked motorcycle. the grrl has a cute, plain black forties dress and betty page bangs. her hair is long and black and straight.

i smile and continue shopping. the grrl comes into the store (dropped off by the boy?) and browses around�much like what i am doing. we glance at each other and work our way slowly toward a meeting, peeking in between the shelves at each other, smelling and testing the perfectly ripe fruit.

we work our way to the back of the market where it is dimly lit and well hidden. the grrl and i suddenly pounce on each other all wet kisses and fingers fumbling buttons. the last thing i remember is her breath in my ear, her whispering to me that she wants my fingers in her when she comes�and not to move them, she wants it still.

woo�!

there were more dreams, but they have since gone away.