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two weeks after the event... | 19 September 2005 | 2:18 pm


after the most amazing wedding weekend ever, we - meaning my husband and i - are back to the normal and every day. so odd, really, it all seems like a crazy dream, but the best and sweetest memory dream i have ever had. two weeks have passed and i cannot tell you how many times i have been asked how different it feels, or what has changed. honestly, the only difference tt and i have noticed is the title change, of course, and the relief and contentment found from knowing we have chosen, and have been chosen, for a lifetime partner. now we get to relax and just keep on enjoying each other's company.

abbreviated recap of sorts?:

wednesday night was a tiny tiny get together at idle and anti's house (so cute! - both idle/anti and their new house) - as wednesday was also henna day my hands were out-of-action. my tt was to feed me and take care of me, a true test of his love and comitment, said the boy. oh yes, it went much further than that... mummification, oh yes.

thursday was hanging with f0o in the afternoon and evening chinese food at meatnogs with most of the crew - so amazing to see everyone at once, i was about to *pop* quite a few times! i think one of my favorite things about getting married were the evening get togethers where i wanted to talk to everyone - how rare is that?! 80s night was all about shaking our gr0ove things, yeah yeah. here's to almost-adultry! *toast*
how many people were hungover for friday? *wink*

on friday my tt and i sneek/snank/slunk off to have some petit d�jeuner with my family - bolting soon after to the science center for a quick (?) walk around. so amazing how many friends were there to support our event planning - my head is still reeling with that day and the details... friday night was another get together at meatnogs complete with the most delicious potluck dinner ever - thank you so much everyone for your yummy treats!
aside: friday night i started to feel the nerves, the zing the snap-crackle, the 40 cups of coffee...oh yes. my decision and intent was not shaking, but my fingertips were...

saturday - day of, oh yes - and i woke at the crack of the whip. by the time i was showered and packed and away from my tt (until the ceremony) i was all a tremble. thank dogs MrBen and addiktion were driving! zig fed me pudding, succubus rubbed me down and axe soothed me with his music... my stomach was full of swallows, my throat tight with centipedes, my legs crawling with squid - the perfect time to off to the hair salon, oh my. everything was perfect, and amazing (thanks to f0o) and i super enjoyed spending some down(?) time before heading to the science center with those i love.

...a slight snag call happened while we were stuck in traffic (of course) on the way to the science center - sither reluctantly lets me know there is a pep-rally on the SC lawn by the submarine for the game happening next door (thusly the traffic, yes.) *shudder* and then calm... martine, i can't worry about this, take care of it?... - little did i know my friends, my precious crew, were all aflame at the science center already, defending my virginal honor to the nuterdam crowd. i trusted in my sither, and my crew, and it all worked amazingly!

i have always considered myself reliable, trustworthy, there in a pinch, etc. and have thought the same of my friends, but i have always also tried to not rely too much on my loved ones (my oc tendencies do not allow for such things.) everyone in the crew, everyone gave me the best gift ever, the present of release/calm/breathe/relax - my beloved friends gave my tt and i sanity on possibly the most tense/stressful day in our life, we attended the most smooth party ever.

how is it possible to have everything turn out so perfect? - the invites, the decorations, the music, the weather, the pictures, the food, the toasts, the escorts and ushering, the the the... i am not listing everything here, but holy fuck what a wonderful and amazing evening my love and i had - and how much love and joy can we possibly feel for each other, our friends, our family - i cannot express it (probably why i have put off writing this entry for so long, no?)

try as i may i was not completely without stress - it hovered inside of me behind a thin veil of fate, and a strong and stubborn resolve of trust�
as i walked down the path toward our submarine and my handsome, my darling, i was so totally overwhelmed by the situation, what was happening and coming to fruition, who i was (a bride, of all ridiculous things.) silly things shattered through my mind, whirling - like coming down 15 min. late (thank goodness for that, as the nuterdam�s had just dispersed minutes before i was escorted by my handsome secret agents, 004 and 009) or the ring bearer not wanting to walk down the aisle, or my alzheimers father singing happy birthday to himself as he walked me down the gang plank toward my love. (note: my dad�s b-day is in december�) - i was totally rageful/stressed/panicky my throat was closing as i hissed/panted at my father to pay attention and not shake other relatives hands on the way down the aisle, and to stop singing - over-emote, close throat, sink boat, dreams float float away down the river as i fail fail fall apart.

...and then i was facing him, my mystery, my heart and i realized he too was overcome, noticed his tears of delight, and the love tsunami around us - and suddenly exhaled all of the stress and the buildup of panic, let go of any tension or nervousness� and concentrated on our moment - and we were two moons in the night sky, we were two oceans, two eternities, two hands holding each other for life (for life) and whisking ourselves away and off the plank as the sun set on what was and the evening broke open into what now had become�

it was all over super fast - thank goodness for all of the pictures, or my tt and i would have missed everything! *shakes head with wonder*

saturday wedding night after party at meatnog's was super as well as lunch the next day, the whole weekend was such a great blast i could not have asked for more/better/different - it was even better than i dreamed and dreamed it... (especially the wedding mares, but we'll not go there as i am having more after than i ever did before the wedding. heh.)


for some pictures of the event - goto our wedding site and click on photo gallery at the bottom of the page.

*poink*

i'll post the vows here a little later on...


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