long overdue update on general life things:

i keep waking up in the middle of the night upset that i have not slept as of yet - and then i remember dreams i have had just moments before. it is quite a process calming down when one wakes up angry - but i've managed to do it for the last few nights. i have so much upset inside, yes. perhaps it is coming out in the evenings because it is not during the day? everything has been ok actually. not amazing, but not bad either. calm, collect, and off the line...

looks like theKillers concert is sold out *shrug*, but RobynHitchcock is still in play. we're off to see DavidByrne next week. it has been a good year for concerts so far, and in keeping with our pledge to be more fun/go out more, we will see a bunch of them. still not going out to clubs much as of yet, but our time and energy are a bit limited.

hey hey what? get laid! get fucked!
or alternately - (from the mind of an adolescent trying to be funny):
hey hey what? get hit by a truck!
hey hey what? get frisked by a duck!
hey hey what? get nipped! get tucked!
you know, i believe that is only a suxburgh thing...i asked around yesterday to a few CA peeps and they had no clue what i was talking about. silly yes, but still a curiosity - was this a PA thing only? or just from my highschool dances?

health stuff is my prime focus now (speaking of Prime, a memory of someone who actually changed their name to Optimus Prime) - health and Sexy Librarianship - both going hand-in-hand of course. new plan to be initiated next week: aikido sun, tue, thur - movement/dance on sat with evilimp (my training contract has run out so now i get to dance!!) and the other three days of the week? these will be spent resting in ways - with yoga/pilates/tai-chi stretching and concentration fun. somehow i have managed to find classes to tone/hone me and that i can actually afford - the piyo, tai-chi etc. is free (with my gym membership) and beats the treadmill for sure. *sick of being a gerbil* i am really trying to dedicate myself to this (health/hot) but i tell ya - i am tired! i cannot wait until i hit some sort of goal (?) and can cut back a bit. also, just because i plan to do something energetic every day does not mean i actually DO it...*wink* it is just a plan.

on the search for meeting new people and friends in this city front - slow and steady. we are hanging out with some people from aikido and reaching out on a few other fronts. i am paying a bit less attention/fret to it as i am really too busy to think/be sad - so i am fine with slow progression, as that is really the only way to meet the solid/good/loyal/fun anyhoo.

slash slash slash - jesus.

what about the wedding plans? a bit of fear, a bit of butterflies, a bit of non-care. nothing new there. i am hoping to get a corset this weekend (or at least get fitted for one) - that is the big plan as of late. i must also gather e-mails for favor confirmation. this is all old news though (in detail two entries before.) we will see what i actually get to. pleh.

i am really digging the band elefant lately - there is something very summer, warm breeze at midnight with the windows open candle flames flickering curtains billowing comfortable about it...

she was wearing her favorite dress
she was waving a blue handkerchief
she was laughing aloud in the corner of the room
but she was dancing alone

so I walked up to her, grabbed her arms to show the world
tonight we'll dance like we're in love...

she was standing beneath the chandelier
i offered her chocolate and some beer
she said no, i said why, she said no, i said why
and stayed dancing alone

so I walked up to her, grabbed her arms to show the world
tonight we'll dance like we're in love...

i look down on her
she looks up at me
all I want is all her love
all I want is all her love...!

tonight we'll dance
tonight we'll dance...tonight we'll dance
...all night long like we were in love