i asked my tt the other day - just how much he thought my childhood experiences lend to my depression/anxiety. or maybe he asked me. in any case, neither of us know (how could we know...really?)
is it time to re-touch base with therapy? now that we are over the hump, so to say, we are taking a good look at ourselves as individuals. our relationship is solid and sweet - but what about our individual contributions? what about what we give to each other? how we support one another and how we show we need support? these are interesting questions, and something to spend some time on. yes.

we still have not found a new place to live - i am feeling a bit uprooted by the imminent possibility, a bit unsettled (the empty fishtank in the basement has a tendency to stare and smirk.)

we are looking at a few places to live with myformidableopponent this evening and tomorrow afternoon. i am not even going to get into how much these places cost. *sigh* we did have some money saved up, but emergencies and the like of the last few months have used up a good chunk. i *hate* borrowing from my sister, as her well-of-ness is a bit much for me to face. this is not the best time for us to move financially, no - but it is a good time mentally and physically (places are less expensive to rent in the winter, if only slightly.) we'll buck/suck it up, and jot it down to experience (or something.)

i'll live through you - i'll make you what i never was
if you're the best, then maybe so am i - compared to him compared to her)
i'm doing this for your own damn good (you'll make up for what i blew)
What's the problem?
...why are you crying?