not too terribly much to write about lately - tt and i are super busy and into our schedule. i must say that i adore taking a class with my love, even if we rarely get to practice with each other - this will change over time of course, as we get more accustomed to movement and certain facets therein. for now, we are to practice aikido only with the more experienced - mostly those with belts - black, brown, etc. interesting.

the body is slow to catch up though. so frustrating to be working on sculpting this form for over a year now, and yet to still have so much pain and discomfort from these new ways of moving. rolling hurts.

rolling fucking hurts.
i still feel so behind/slow/immense, etc. - i am much more in shape than a year ago (not saying much, you understand, considering a year ago) but i am still trapped in a clunky and heavy form. being light and sprite-ly thin for me, i am realizing, may be impossible. this is fine, however, for i have decided i would much rather be strong and kick-ass - my super-hero-ness come to true form. this is a good decision - a realistic and attainable one.

i refuse to fad diet - my diet is healthy and i am becoming more so with exercise, etc. that is just the way. i just want to like me, yes... and feel comfortable being naked in a room full of people.

hoozah.