pleh - with all of this thinking going on my posts seem to be these terrifying deluges of personal vomit. such is life. aside from the introspection as of late things are quite well actually. tt and i are off to vegas in 3 days for a couple of days of drinking and debauch. i wish we had a grrlie to take with us - a jewel on our arm - a twinkle in her step - a grrlie we could woo with dinners and wine, tongues and teeth. alas. we will just have to have a blast all by ourselves *wink*

job stuff is bearable - tt very much likes his new employ - i am holding out for a promotion. there was a whisper, a mere breeze of it a week ago but not so much as a glance since then. they know things will only get better if they take my department responsibilities and convert them in to something more enterprise wide - they know. perhaps they fear? *smile*

married life is fantastic - like living with my best friend and we're both four years old. very silly. we are a bit isolated, but inside the bubble it is mega and safe.

we are saving up to trade in the tt for a used saab (aka the trunk)/cayman combo - the whole thought of which makes me a bit nervous with the government/oil/idiots/depression crap, but we are only going to be this young once. every time i think about the cayman i am still like a little puppy pissing all over itself with joy, sans piss.

fish are fucking away and the kitties, well, they are just fucks. fuzzy cute toothy fucks, but fuckers none the less.

...don't forget to check out cats that look like hitler...

there are certainly some health issues and mind stuff to work through - it is not all whine and me me me, but getting caught up in that at times, especially now, is a necessary evil.

...now i'm walking again to the beat of a drum
...and i'm counting the steps to the door of your heart
only shadows ahead - barely clearing the roof
get to know the feeling of liberation and relief

hey now, hey now - don't dream it's over
hey now, hey now, When the world comes in they come,
they come to build a wall between us

don't ever let them win...