a string of messages left for sither to find in the morning:
bootygrrl: if you need me to go on saturday night i will make the time
bootygrrl: we are already dancing that afternoon and going to a movie that evening - i am not sure where it fits in
bootygrrl: sunday i have my dinner with people from work
bootygrrl: there just is not alot of time, but i'll make it if it is important to you
bootygrrl: i apologize, but you found me in sorrow - i was being selfish
bootygrrl: i need more time with TT
bootygrrl: it is hard to keep hopes up all of the time, hard to keep on the bright side, the positive, the jolly
bootygrrl: it is draining
bootygrrl: and i need to clean
bootygrrl: clean everything before mother and her white glove arrive
bootygrrl: this month is hard
bootygrrl: and next as well, etc.
bootygrrl: i am doing, and will do what i can to support
bootygrrl: and be there
bootygrrl: i know this is an important time for you
bootygrrl: i just need time to plan
bootygrrl: .

a string of messages left for sither to find in the morning - including author commentary:
bootygrrl: if you need me to go on saturday night (with both you and your best friend who seems to be invited along to every event i invite you to whether she welcome or not) i will make the time (who needs air/space...i am a rock.)
bootygrrl: we (sither and her beaux) are already dancing (swing and waltz lesson #4 for their wedding) that afternoon and going to a movie (underworldofhotsexychickzors) that evening - i am not sure where it fits in (wake up...clean...brunch with sither and beaux...dance lesson...TT tattoo...movie...then drinks with sither/friend?)
bootygrrl: sunday i have my dinner with people from work (this is my day to plan, not yours)
bootygrrl: there just is not alot of time (unless i cut out some things i was planning on doing before this last minute...), but i'll make it if it is important to you (and will do my best to be calm and not incredibly anxious and watching the clock)
bootygrrl: i apologize, but you found me in sorrow - i was being selfish (it is the purest form of selfishness, depression is)
bootygrrl: i need more time with TT (we need more time together, alone, alone...)
bootygrrl: it is hard to keep hopes up all of the time, hard to keep on the bright side, the positive, the jolly (the job hunt brings both of us down in more ways than i care to count)
bootygrrl: it is draining (i'd love to add yet another thing to plan into our already tiring weekend)
bootygrrl: and i need to clean (another thing that will suck the energy right out of one)
bootygrrl: clean everything before mother and her white glove arrive (as much as i would like to say "fuck you" to mum, i'd rather have her just shut the hell up about...well...any/everything)
bootygrrl: this month is hard (believe it or not, your wedding is not the only thing going on)
bootygrrl: and next as well, etc. (not only the arrival of the parents, but the actual wedding as well - not to mention all of the things not revolving around your FREAKIN WEDDING.)
bootygrrl: i am doing, and will do what i can to support (although, once again, you are not the only one i need to be there for)
bootygrrl: and be there (although you seem to need this other around as well)
bootygrrl: i know this is an important time for you (and that makes it an important time for me too, it really does)
bootygrrl: i just need time to plan (ok...just stop throwing fucking surprises and last-minutes at me all of the time)
bootygrrl: .