things are going well as of late - a few stumbles here and there this weekend, but for the most part slow and steady down the correct and precise course. tt and i are snapping less and snuggling more - how strange something as simple as spending a little free time apart would make such a change. we just need a little space of our own - heh. funny this has not come up until 6yrs in to our relationship. the first three years make sense because we would only see each other on weekends (damn traveling job) and had plenty of time to ourselves - but what about the last 2 or 3. bliss they were/are. interesting relationships can develop these little speedbumps. *shrug* we just have to keep our eyes open so we do not hit them too hard...

i have appointment number 2 with harriet today - guess i will go over the last 2/3rds of my list with her. that list was a great tool - oh yes - and even though it does not list everything that i need to work on, it is a good start ...bit overwhelming though.

this weekend will be full fun dinners and relaxing. also need to do a bit of plant tending in our 55gal tank - amazing how the plants grow and grow. the two baby mollies i have left are doing quite well after the ich, and the livebearers are fucking away. fun to have pin-head sized babies in the tank - they are all eyes, very cute. if i were a big fish i'd eat 'em up for sure.

maybe we'll light up the grill this weekend - yum - bok-choy here we come!

last night in my dream tt and i were parents - when the baby would not shut up i put my knuckle gently in her mouth to pacify her and she BIT me - full set of teeth she had - i lifted my hand, picking her up and shook her off above the floor to get rid. it was a bit shocking, but we laughed, oh yes. we're not going to be parents, nope. little bitey things...
actually the dream probably relates to my friend's cat biting into my hand 9 yrs. ago - i did pretty much the same thing to get it off of my hand, except there was a wall nearby to whack it off of. yes yes, you are so very cute kitty, until you are hanging off of my hand by my fracking tendons. i'll never forget driving myself to the hospital - zig, weren't you there for that? heh. that was the only time i was thankful to own a car with and automatic transmission.

i have until Sep 3rd to finish all of the thank you cards *pant* bad of me - lastminutegrrl or TheProcrastinator if you please. i hate feeling forced to do things - but sometimes i really need a kick in the pants.

...and all along the watchtowers, the black horses and night mares steady themselves
for the outcome - for the strange days upon us...