re: Idlechic - hey Idle, I�d like to see your results too...!

so, i ask each of you, if you honestly try to picture yourself 10 years into the future, where do you see yourself? i don't mean the standard "if i accomplish everything i want to, here's where i'll be" answer; i mean, based on what you know of your personality and how you've grown and where you've gone over the past 10 years, where do you think you'll be?

what will your living situation be like? do you live alone? with roommates? do you own or rent?

i will, no doubt, be living with the tt. by then we will most likely own a house, depending on the suck-i-os-i-ty of the economy and whether all American jobs have been completely outsourced or not. we may have a live-in �maid� by that point if all is still going well, which would be groovy. it would be cool to have someone to vacuum and dust in little outfits (or not) and who purrs well in exchange for free rent and pampering. any takers? *wink*

who will you be in love with? is it reciprocated? are you married? have you been divorced? are you faithful and with someone who's faithful?

i cannot imagine myself not in love with the tt and viceversa - i do not see this changing except for achieving deeper and more complex levels of intimacy. i love him and my close friends resolutely. i can envision having more friends close to me, especially geographic-wise. so lonely. i will be married within ten years (next Sept, actually, heh) and do so for life. i may however be a widow or dead, only time will tell.

tt and i will be faithful in mind, soul and spirit, but most likely not body - hopefully we�ll be swinging our selves quite fluently by then. it is only a body, after all, a meat container. life is too short to not experience every pleasure and intimacy - after all, half the fun is sharing these experiences with each other, no? so few things are fun and pleasurable. ...we plan to revel in live as much as humanly possible.

how 'bout work? do you work in the same job? at the same company? the same line of work? have you completely changed careers? are you even employed?

most likely i will still be an archivist or librarian - i am too lazy to make a living from artwork, singing, dancing, etc. i do expect, however, to be in a higher acclaimed position. at the moment i manage an archive, but have no direct employees - therefore i am not a �Head of the Archive� - just the Archivist. titles are fun - doctor, professor, etc. peh. i get paid little to do much, this will change. either it will change where i am, or i will go elsewhere where change is possible.

a job is a job, and i will continue on in what i am trained to do - within the next ten years i plan to work on the more creative side of me (see my answer for schooling)

and school? have you gone back to school? finished a degree? gotten another degree? dropped out again? maybe you're teaching classes?

school? i�ve had enough school - 10yrs out of my life in school. i am done. i think the only program i would join at this point would be for pure pleasure - perhaps an art BA or chef school - perhaps sometime in the next 10 years if there is money for it. i�m done with workforce training.

i long to take piano lessons again, perhaps get back in to voice lessons, take figure drawing courses, etc. i want to reclaim ballroomdancing as something i can be proud of, and perhaps take classes therein. tt and i are starting aikido up in september, this would also qualify as a class.

i do not have the patience to teach other people, although i did teach my sister and her beaux to dance a pretty waltz for their wedding. i hear i am good at it - but the whole �hating most people� thing often gets in the way of being a teacher. i was on course to become a creative writing/poetry professor but stopped 4 classes away out of dislike for university bureaucracy and bullshit. i can teach those i know/like/respect - but professors do not get to choose.

do you have children? do you want children? do you have children you never wanted? CAN you have children? pets? (yes, i've lumped children and pets together. i bet you can guess my answers to this section)

i refuse to give birth. i would raise a child if left it in one of my sister�s or friends wills, yes, and raise it well and with much compassion - but as for popping out my own - no thanks.

i have recently discovered my health insurance will pay for tuballigationorvacatomy with relatively little cost to the patient as long as your doc says it is ok. mine does - and not because i am sick or it would hurt me to have a kid, just because i do not want to have one. yay. it would cost me all of $150 to never have a kid, and tt $100. we chat about it being a nice 10yr anniversary present to each other. so in the next 10 years, there is a good chance i will be made unable to have children. woot!

i hope to have dog, a big one, when we have house. i am thinking 5+ years from now... not sure. we will most likely always have cats - refreshing them every so often to keep the older ones active. crazy cat lady here i come. hopefully we will have another fish tank soon, we so miss the wigglies.

if you feel so daring, where do you see me in 10 years?

this is a difficult one. i see you working on you and your future now, so things are certainly changing. i have my hopes for you - my hope that you find more direction and focus on what you want to do in the future - you already work on this. my hope that you have a relationship which gives you what you need, and that cherishes what you give... hope that you are happier with both yourself and your life... hope that you find contentment and bliss... these are my hopes not projections for you. it is hard to project someone else�s life because of all of the baggage and opinions/wants/needs i have for myself - i cannot be impartial.

i think you took a great step going back to school, working on your health, etc. i think you are going in the right direction, growing, focusing, etc. these things certainly will not work for everyone, but seem logical and well thought-out to me. instead of wandering through the woods, you have started to pick your own paths... or at least figuring out which ones you like and abhor. that is certainly something.

...as the water grinds the stone,
we rise and fall
as our ashes turn to dust,
we shine like stars