work work yesterday, then coffie and grilled cheese fun with zig -- she is going to join the chorale with me in the spring! woo!! another alto singing buddy. *grin*

then fun buzzy chat with my TT...

whatever will we do with thepalewanandsicklyone?
what are the rules?

...and then there are the strange topics such as: what makes me wish to bring others into my personal and nekkid bootyboi world? what do i wish to get out of this beside pleasure, satisifaction? ...perhaps something to think about.

is it a path for destruction? am i bound to ruin strong relationships because of such things?

it has happened before, but i would not call the relationship that i had with mypartnerincrime strong...at least not by that point. i was so weak then -- no matter what he did to keep it together it was bound for failure. toss in a grrlie#2 who took what she wanted, crafted it, and you have do0m.

*shrug*

i swear TT i'll get past that someday... still so raw and full of pain. no matt-er how much i talk about it and vomit it out -- it sits still, festering rot.

thepalewanandsicklyone is so different, more mature...better...cuter and of more worth.

i do not know what drives me to the love. i am so so very happy with my boi, sated, wonderful, in bliss (of another kind?)... i can now not imagine the absence of him in my life, i hold him so close inside.

Don't ask me
what you know is true
...don't have to tell you,
i love your precious heart

i
i was standing,
you were there.
two worlds collided --
and they could never tear us apart...

and today i think about airplanes, hurling through the sky toward home...as i think of every friday. and the wait to re-meet him, my love.

or future is so free now, not hampered by another degree -- and yet fuck the economy... we are still trapped in this crappy little town.

...but then again, isn't that what travel is for?

*grin*

...idlechic is being cute today...

where oh where is f0o?? i miss her muchso...grrlie! get on irc? i miss you!

*frown*