how oh how do i advise someone on a choice to make which envolves a world which is completely foreign to me? i ask f0o for advising advice at lunch, i ask lex for non-library-work-related advising. and he offers me answers and solutions then covers his ass by saying that he is a pa-laeo-ntologist, what does he know about puters and the technological industry...how to work with them. he makes me smile, he showes me rocks, he goes to meetings and now i am alone in my office thinking about major life decisions and how frightening it can be to watch someone interact with their future.

work is not everything, true, but it is the means for life...it is the vehicle for the tenor of comfort and stability. odd, but it is important to him, therefore important to me. it is terrifying to think that certain decisions and paths take one to other choices which they could not see before and so on. many times one can not walk back the path once trodden. newp. all of the crumbs and shiny little pebbles disappear, and you turn around and no discernable path can be seen.

sometimes you get lost.

sometimes you stumble blind/wildly through the foliage thinking you are movig toward a place that you had once been in the past...only to find something marvelous and new, another path lined with shiny irises and freshly raked gravel.

...but that rarely happens.

i like it when i am just wondering aimlessly, counting leaves, and my path intersects with another's path...now that is something.